Sakit Rindu.

At the first time I had a broken heart, I mean a real broken heart is when you told me that you already have a girlfriend. The way it hurt my heart will never give me any lesson to miss and love you still. Re-reading our very old conversation make me feel the most awful feeling ever. It gives me a worst feeling to feel as I'm very in love with you willing to give anything to complete our love story. But even if you broke my heart completely hard, I never blame you for this heartbroken me. I never blame me for telling me the truth. Ya I still hope that i love you thing is true. oh maybe I'm just wishing.To me our every conversation is so precious. I still remember every sweet things that you had said, every single moment that make me felt high as never. Maybe one side of me is just too mad of you for leaving me. But the other side of is suffering lonely and hardly missing you. I just deserve to be punished. Punished because had fall in love with your every naughtiness sweetness and the way you make me felt loved for who i am. Now the more i force myself to act heartlessly, the more it hurts me missing you.